The more I write

The easier it gets, right?

About me

Blogging 101 – Revamping my about page.

What should my ‘About me’ page say about me? My age, my gender? I’m a male, fast approaching 50, but is that relevant? Would that make what I write about any more or less important? I would like people of all ages to find my scribblings and be inspired or at least get a laugh. Should I talk about my job next? Being a public servant can be soul crushing at times. There’s not a lot of room for creativity, unless fitting any number of cliched superlatives into an email counts as being creative. At the end of the day, I want to build strong working relationships with my stakeholders to leverage these synergies and foster innovation.

A colleague once asked me for the names of my contacts in a particular team because he wanted to open a dialogue with them. WTF? What’s wrong with wanting to talk to them???

I often use multiple ! and ?. I read somewhere once that it’s a sign of insanity. Sounds about right.

So, if you’ve read this far, maybe you’re intrigued as to see where this lunatic is taking you. It’s not like this is a cab and I’ve taken all the inside door handles off, trapping you, you can leave at any time. It’s my hope that you won’t go just yet.

Procrastination, fear and a healthy dose of self-loathing are my greatest attributes. I think of an idea, bang away on the keys for an hour or so, but like a 100 metre sprinter mistakenly entered in a marathon, the field (or in this case, the fear) quickly catches up to me. I read back through what I’ve written and think, omg, who would read this shite!?!? So then I think, “I need to do some research,” and off I go onto the internet to “research” AKA procrastinate. I’m able to procrastinate just long enough so that I don’t have any time left to start writing again. Then of course the self hatred begins. It’s a fantastic cycle, one that’s held me down for the best part of 40 years.

The good news is, there’s a happy ending to this story. The fact that you are reading this means I’ve been able to overcome whatever obstacles I’ve put in the way and actually get something I’ve written online. So ‘The more I write” is simply that and nothing more. The more I write, the more I practice this craft, the easier it gets and the more comfortable I’ll be with my voice.

Before I go, there’s one topic that I do want to talk about, with some regularity on my blog, mindfulness and meditation. Those two things have been instrumental in my being able to get words out and online. Meditating every day and being more mindful throughout the day has awoken something, something in the deep recesses of my mind. For as long as I can remember, my inner dialogue has been a constant stream of negativity and self hatred. But meditation and being present in the moment has silenced the loudest critic, me.

 

Thanks for reading.

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